i'm back!

last post was on August...really damn long time dint update my blog...
what am I busy with? same stuff.....career, family, son.....

tell all of you about that....i gonna be crazy!!!!
because....i gain my weight for 3kg man!!!!
#%?/*&^%#@$?//+
really very angry and sad sad sad......haiz...need to start keep fit..I do not want to be fat mummy...i wanna be a modern mom and pretty mom..haha...
gambateh lisa...go ahead! start keep fit now! before it late.......=(

my baby...haiz...recently....very naughty..and his 1st birthday is around the corner!
nothing special to celebrate his birthday...just whole family have a dinner and cut cake for him only...
this few days he was ill.....don't want to eat and drink....always cry in midnight....made me and husband can't sleep well...but we understand it is our responsibilities to be his parents....we got no excuse to blame of...

one more thing would like to share you....
A BAD NEWS FOR ME....My cousin's daughter passed away on last week....
she was just a 5 months baby....so cute and pretty baby....
before she leaving us she encountered two operation....but doctor have mentioned that the success percentage for operation is low.....
if it success she can live for more than 10 years, but if it unsuccessgul, she can just live for 2 more years...but one month after the operation she leave us!
it happened too suddenly! without expectation!
so pity my dear baby...only few months baby have to gone through so much suffer but still can't have a chance to continue live in this world...
she even no choice to see this beautiful world....
she even no choice to enjoy the fun of life...
she even no choice to taste the yummy food....
and and she even no choice to let us give her our love, our concern and our caring....
many things in this world have been arrange accordingly by the God......we can't disobey the rules and order of the God....
and she was ordered to not be our relative....and her parents' daughter......

after so many things....I learned to be open-minded....do not force myself to be perfect...
be cin-cai....don't so strict in every thing...
then I will be more happy.....

friend

don't know when it start....i felt that life was so critical....
in life, really hard to find a true friend....that can share everything with you....where he/she also can help you to solve your obstacles....

when you very close with a friend, you thought she is your close friend....but when you face some problem or situation, you will found that she is not belong to the 'true friend' group...
because maybe in some things both of you have the same interest on it so you thought that both of you are so close, but you are wrong...

haiz....true friend...where to find? and how to find?
i really need a true friend...but very difficult....
i really need somebody whose can share everything with me, and have same favourite and same interest with me....is it possible? i don't know...and i think i will not get the answer....forever....

we live in a world...just A world...but why there would be so so many kind of people?
when you interact with this person, he/she will tell you about other people's stuff...
but when you interact with that person, he/she will tell you something about another one person...
why people will become like that? why people have to be like that?
why?

i start thinking that people was so unexpected...somebody will do something that you can't expect and judge....so terrible...

haiz..hopefully someday i will not be like that too...

H@ppy birthd@y to mee...

haha...long time didn't update my blog...
busy working....

yesterday was my birthday....
thank you all my friends that wish me at Facebook....
thank you all my friends that wish me through SMS....
thank you my friend that wish me by phone...
and thank you my friend that wish me face to face...

very happy...and appreciate all the wishes received....

at the first, I thought that this year birthday would be as normal and nothing special...
but...but...
my husband gave me a suprise!

hehe...he went bought a Baskin Robin ice cream cake without my knowledge!
this is the first time he gave me a suprise....and let me felt that he is so caring me....
and this was the first time too I felt his strong love to me....
thank you hubby...love you....

besides, he also bought me a necklace....a shape of heart....thank you..i love it so so much....

well...still got a present....a present from God....my cutie baby Fu Rui Bin.....thanks God...
although he still don't know how to say happy birthday to me...but i can feel the love from him to me in heart...very deeply and strong.....

cannot forget two person too....they are my parents! thank you daddy and mummy for giving me an angpau....i will keep it properly....

lastly...thank you and thank you again to all of you!
i hope that in the following birthday i can celebrate with all my friends!
hehe.....

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I need money $$$$$$$$$$$$$
Recently quite tired with the money stuff....
Things are so costly nowadays but our salary still remains...
haiz..really not ehough money for monthly uses and expenses.....

I need money to buy my facial cream.....day cream, toner, night cream,mask and all that...being women is so fan lol...


I need money to buy high heel shoes...that ones wearing right now gonna to spoilt liao...so...if not no shoes to wear to work leh...



I need money to buy many things and do many things....
perhaps if my boss can hear what I said...then hopefully 'she' will increase my salary...as higher as possible...is it possible? but at least I got dream ma....when we got dream then we are closer towards our income...hehe...just a excuse to make myself feel more happy...

Besides, wanna say sorry to all my friends...that I can't make myself to merge with every gathering that held by all of you....I'm useless....such a stupid monitor....can't carry my own roles also....I'm apologize for it...hope you guy can understand that I have my own family to take care of...so sometimes really can't come with you all.....really sorry...

But just wanna let all of you know that....In my heart, I still remember all of you....no matter our distance was so far away, and we have our own things to carry on...but I really really still remember all of you...hope that all of you din't forget about me....the stupid monitor.....

okay...stop here...miss you all....