sorry...baby...=(

sorry...

ruebin...

mummy really felt very sorry to you...

I dun want to become like that de...
all because of my careless...

made you suffered...
made you uncomfortable...

pls forgive mummy...

next time i will makesure it will not recur again...

mummy promise...

really promise....

love you baby....

T.T

baby

my baby... u know how to turn over your bady le..
hehe... it is a good starting for you...
still got many challenges...are waiting for you..

dun be afraid...
dun be frighten...
mummy and daddy will alwiz be with you..
mummy and daddy will alwiz beside you...

to surmount all the obstancles
one by one...
step by step...

you must grow healthy..
you must grow happy...

no matter what we will accompany you
to smile
to cry
to sleep
to play
to walk
to run
to eat
to......................

no matter what

lisa mummy and jimmy daddy
will love you

forever

eternal

yes!!!!!

hurray!!
my ruebin know how to turn over his body le!!!
haha... sorry as i din have the cable to connect with computer so cant post the picture..
next time la..sure got chance de...

mama..

Mother...

I have 2 mother...

mummy very sayang me...know what I need...caring abt my life...my job...my relationship with my husband...

mama also sayang me...but dun know why if compare with your daughter I still gain lesser concern from you...

i know de...i understand de...cos i'm still a 'orang luar' no matter how harmony we are...

a gap was exist between us...

i dun know why it will become like this...

maybe i'm still a 18 years old girl...for you...

i know what i done was not good as you did...

but i will learn...learn to be more closer with you...

be a daughter-in-law is not a easy job...

especially for me who just 18 years old...

last time at home i can give any opinion that i think i'm right...i can

speak anything i like...

do anything i prefer...

act anything i want...

but now...

i can't already...

now before i want to give any opinion i have to think twice...

before i speak anything i have to look at other people 'face' first..

before i do anything i have to makesure what i do will not make anybody angry...

before i act anything i have to look is it suitable for the situation, if not i will be sarcasm by other people...

haiz...really not easy...

do you know that? i already turn into a new leave...if compare with last time...

i already try my best to become your good daughter-in-law..

everytime when you praise other daughter-in-law, i really hope to hear the compliment from you to me...

maybe for you, i'm still not good enough...

the only one thing that i had made you happy was i give you a cute baby...a cute baby boy...

i know you love him so much...

but still got problem exist...

i'm very care and concern on everything of ruebin..i want give him everything good...

example his feeding bottle you always didn't wash cleanly.. i didn't talk anything about it..

that day i really cannot tahan...so i said:

" mama, ruebin's feeding bottle have to use that brush to wash if not it won't clean"

but what i gain in the end was your unhapiness..

so i didn't mention about this again in front of you...

i know you love ruebin so much..

but just want to let you know that ruebin also my mother's cucu...

sometimes when i told you i want bring ruebin to my mother there..you look so unhappy...

if i didn't take ruebin to my mother there daddy and mummy will unhappy..

what can i say..

i only can say i'm very suffered from such this situation...

mama, i just want to let you know that i love you as i love my daddy and mummy..

just want you to understand me and understand anything i done...

anyway..mama, i love you..

from my heart..

Time

Time gone so fast...today already the first day of the last month for year 2008...
too fast...really damn fast...maybe there was too many things happened...
so i didn't notice it...
or maybe i spent my whole time being with baby...
so i didn't notice it...
or maybe i spent my whole time to think of when i can get more $$$...
so i didn't notice it...
or maybe time really with what we said: it will not wait any people...

LET BYGONES BY BYGONES

just appreciate with what you having now

just treasure the time being with your loves one

if not it won't come back again

if not you will regret

just think the time gone too fast...i felt like really miss a lot of things, scene or people that was important or meaningful for me...

but from now i will learn to appreciate...

so i will not regret...

Sorry....

Sorry for din't update my blog....pls forgive me as I have many jobs and identities....And I promise you all, in this coming december I will try to update my blog every week if it possible...

Now the time to introduce you my identities:


1. I am a wife of my husband. I have to take care of him in daily life.. you know la...men seldom care about which shirt I have to wear, which shirt need to wash as it already wore many days or how to use my $$$ when I get my salary...

(p/s: men can spend the salary without saving one cents!! my husband is a good example!!!)

2. I am a menantu of my mother-in-law. I have to take care of my mother-in-law too. Before I marry, I just need to treat my mother and father, but now I got one more person that need to be sayang le...As we know, 相 爱 易 相 处 难, two person that from different family lifestyle if living together sure will produce some "fire' one la..Although sometimes I'm not eye to eye with what she said, but for family's own good and I don't want make my husband feel embarassing, so I endure lo...

3. I am a daughter of my parents. Although I already married, but I'm still my mummy and daddy's daughter, this is a fact, a fact that will not change..Sometimes I feel very sad because I cant stay with my family and be with them all the time...I miss my room, i miss my bed, i miss my study table, i miss my cupboard, i miss my toilet, i miss my radio. i miss my HOME, I MISS THEM VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!!!! I know i cant always be with them, but i want to let them know that they will always in my heart...forever...forever...

4. I am a employee of my boss. I'm working as a admin. assistant (or just my boss's secretary) lo..Although my salary for a month just RM 800++, but I feel happy working here because my boss treat me nice..I can learn communication skill (my boss is an insurance agent so she is good on it) and also learning computer...Lisa is no more computer idiot (still noy very good la but got improve liao)..hehe =)...And that is why you can see me writing here...

5. The last one job and it is also my favourite job -- I am a mother of my baby!!! My baby's name is FU RUI BIN, nickname is REUBIN, mandarin name is 胡 瑞 斌, do you think it is difficult to write? Haha...I think one leh..very cool rite? My baby very guai o..I want to thanks God for giving me a valuable gift in my life --- a cute baby...My baby likes to smile, when you see he smiles with you, your unhappiness and burden will let off...But when he cries, sure I won't cry also la...But when he feels pain, my heart will feel pain too...That day after I delivered my baby, the nurse of hospital there gave baby a injection. When the nurse inject the "needle" into my baby's shoulder, he cries loud and very loud..At that time, my tears almost flow out...and heart felt very painful..Because that is mother's love...Another one is breastfeeding! Until now I still got breast milk to feed my baby..Because I have to work so I will pump out the milk first and store it into refrigerator. When baby want to eat, my mother-in -law will take it out and reheat it... Talking about pump milk..I pump my milk by using a electrical pump..Its power is very strong...I t sucks out all the milk from your breast so you can imagine how strong is its suck!! The skin of my nipple worn out and bleeding!! And it make me feel painful!! But I never blame on it because it is the responsibility of a mother...And I'm happy to do it...

That is one more identity that I will not forget,

I'm a friend of all of you!!

I will not forget the sweet memory that we have together,

hope you all will not forget me too.

FRIENDS FOREVER