Tuesday, April 28, 2009

给瑞斌的信

致:瑞斌

一、二、三、四、五、六、七,转眼间,你又七个月大了,时间真的过得很快,光阴似箭,应用这句成语最恰当不过了。


现在的你已经有五颗牙齿了!真快呀!你应该是想赶快生完所有的牙齿,那就可以吵着爸爸妈咪带你去吃McDonald或是KFC了,对吗?嘻嘻····可是快餐是没有营养的,但偶尔还是会带你去品尝,只要你乖乖听话,好吗?

现在的你,在学习着平坐。虽然坐的时候还不是很稳固,没关系,慢慢来,别害怕,妈咪会一直在你后面支撑着你,所以你不用担心会翻倒而敲到地面,因为妈咪是不会让你受到任何的伤害。

现在的你,天天都以Baby Walker代步,我们都称呼它为你的MERCEDES,哈哈·····可能希望你将来真的能拥有一台MERCEDES 吧!你的脚力很强,坐Walker时比我们走路还要快,你似乎都在跑哦!但你从不觉得疲倦,唉·····男生就是这么的活泼有劲了!

现在的你,很馋嘴哦!我们吃什么,你都要一份,如果我们不给,你就发脾气,好坏蛋哦!还有,你现在也很“手多”,什么东西都要拿来玩,不管是放在桌面上的或是橱门柜门,你都会想尽所有办法来得到它。如果这种“不屈不挠”的精神应用在你将来的学业或事业上,肯定是很好的,所以要坚持这种精神哦!

现在的你,精灵得很呢!你总是会知道,什么时间是到楼上房间睡觉,什么时间是该起床到楼下玩。每天晚上九点多左右,你就会嚷着要到楼上睡觉。每天早上八点多左右,你就会吵着要到楼下玩,坐你的MERCEDES!哈哈····你就会知道!现在的小孩都很聪明哦!

现在的你,已经开始吃粥了,哇····是不是品尝到好滋味了呢?看你吃到多么的开心·····但是奶还是要继续喝哦,因为奶对你的发育有很好的帮助,所以妈咪还是会继续买奶粉给你喝的。可是有件事情要你答应妈咪,奶一定要喝完知道吗?千万别不喝完,然后就拿去倒掉,这是多么的浪费啊!因为这是爸爸妈咪赚钱买回来的,答应妈咪好吗?

现在的你,超爱看电视节目哦!不管是卡通片、戏剧、体育节目······你都“统统全单照收”。尤其是广告时段,你都爱看。还有你最喜欢的,福建剧的开场主题曲,你超喜欢的哦!真拿你没办法。不过,适可而止哦,不然以后可要戴眼镜了。妈咪会去买一些儿童教育CD给你看,因为这总好过你看那些广告片或是戏剧片咯,那些都属于没有教育性的节目。可是你应该会怀疑,既然没有教育性的节目,大家却爱看,这应该是因为它比较好看咯!哈哈·····看是可以啦,但是别沉迷哦,知道吗?

现在的你,不再像刚出生时那样喜欢依偎在妈咪的怀抱里了,你已经懂得抗拒了。现在把你抱进怀抱里,你都会反抗,怎么呢?你刚出生时,妈咪都是这样抱着你,喂你喝人奶的啊····在医院时,不知是不是刚出生,你还不能习惯周围的环境导致你不能安眠入睡,妈咪都是这样抱着你入睡的啊····那时的你,躺在妈咪的怀抱里时睡得多么的甜啊!难道你都忘了吗?

斌斌,你很爱笑,有人说,你是结合了爸爸的开朗与妈咪的活泼,哈哈····所以是最优的!对,没错,你永远都是爸爸妈咪心目中最可爱最好的孩子!告诉你,妈咪最喜欢看到你笑了。你笑的时候,妈咪的心情都会快乐起来。尤其是每天早晨起床时,当你一睁开眼,第一件会做的事情就是笑了。所以就算妈咪再累再憔悴,只要看到你笑,什么疲倦都消失了。有句话是这么说的,父母的心情归咎于孩子的喜怒哀乐,这句话说得真没错。

斌斌,妈咪有些地方要指责你哦!不要随随便便就发脾气,这是不好的行为。这都要怪妈咪,妈咪以前也是这样的,唉····你遗传了我的坏脾气。你应该多学习爸爸那种容忍的性格,你看看爸爸,是不是很少发脾气的?所以你要向爸爸看齐知道吗?

再过几个月,你就要一岁了,从婴孩升格到儿童。其实,妈咪很自私,不希望你这么快长大,希望你永远都是婴孩,永远都在我们的怀抱里,让我们保护你。爸爸曾说过,他现在要常常吻你、抱你,因为当你慢慢长大后,你就会渐渐地不再与我们这么地亲密,你不会再像现在那样,让我们抱、让我们吻了。你有你的世界、你有你的朋友、你有你的伴侣······你已经不需要好像现在那样,需要我们的保护了,你,已经懂得怎样保护你自己了。但,妈咪想让你知道,当你需要被呵护时,当你需要一个温暖的怀抱时,妈咪的门永远为你而开。

斌斌,妈咪不希望你成龙,但更不希望你成虫,只希望你能脚踏实地的做人。将来,如果你不喜欢读书,没关系,妈咪不会勉强你的,因为妈咪也是过来人。只要你不学坏,完成学业就行了。出来社会后,妈咪不会要你一定要当专业人士或是做office工,只要你有一门手艺,过着安定的生活。你有你自己的朋友,但妈咪希望你要懂得回家,如果可以的话,常常给爸爸妈咪一个爱的拥抱或是爱的吻好吗?

最后,妈咪希望你能健健康康的成长,爸爸妈咪会尽量给你一个快乐的童年。


瑞斌,妈咪永远爱你。






妈咪


丽霞 笔


2009年4月29日




p/s: 朋友,双亲节快到了,你们有几久没给父母一个爱的拥抱或是爱之吻呢?还在犹豫要送什么礼物给父母?别再犹豫了,一个爱的拥抱、一个爱之吻,再加上一句“爸妈,父/母亲节快乐!我爱你们!”这就是最好的礼物。

Monday, April 20, 2009

happy, happy and happy...

Rainy n stormy have gone away....the rainbow now is fullfill whole the sky....so beautiful....
It is same with my expression and feelings in this moment...happy.....just happy....
many good things happen recently....I should thank God and thanks all my freinds....the wishes that givn by you all drive me in a proper way and give me a support to surmount all the challenges and obstacles too.....appreciate it .....please accept the thank you from my heart...

First good news: I GET MY JOB!!!!!!!!! Hurray! It is so exciting that I can run away from this old environment finally!!! I will start the new job after a month. After a month, there will be a lot changes to me..I can work in a new environement, have many new colleagues...new boss....all things will be new..there such a new born for Lisa! So happy for it....

Second good news: ME AND MY HUBBY OWN A NEW CAR! Not a new car la, just my hubby's boss bought him a car...second-hand one la....but it considered as a new car for us la...although it is not a luxurious car.....but happy that I will not have any transport problem when I work at the new company...I can drive there by my own!

Third good news: MY BEST FRIEND FOUND HER MR.RIGHT! It is good good news for me...I can't mention who was the best friend...I just know that she is enjoying the relationship between them...she is now being loved by a good guy....a quite good guy la..i think he is not bad la..hope I will not judge him wrongly la... really hope that he can treat her nice and love her truely and deeply...wish them will love forever and eternal....pray for you, my best friends...

Below were the photo of my baby since him born until now....would like to share with my friends how cute is him! Hehe...for me he is the most cute baby!

oops.....shame shame.....'''

what are you doing ya? rui bin's Mercedez oh.....no.....u saw my naked body! wah...the mouth opened so big til a flies oso can fly into it! why you look me like that? like father, like son like mother, like son so close o.....
why you curi took my sleeping photo? few days after came back from hospital wau..so small alrdy so sensitive with the camera..

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

all the best

Tomorow will have my second interview at the same company. That day I said it is a ING Insurance Berhad, sorry I was mentioned wrongly. Actually it is a company called Great Vision Sdn. Bhd. It is a financial planning company, while it also selling insurance products.

I have received their call on today to ask me tomorrow go there to have my second interview. I think this time will talk about my salary, i think. Because last interview we haven't touch about the salary topic. This time will talk about it, perhaps.

And I think tomorrow they will not ask me to type documents again gua, i think. Because my typing skill still not pass yet. Because only one week period then I can type so fast like all of you, IMPOSSIBLE MAN! Nevertheless, after I listen to all the advices that provided by my friends, I think my typing speed got improve a bit liao, a bit la I think. Previously the speed is 20km/j, now is 40km/j lo...hahaha...>.< I simply say only la.

Hope I can pass the interview on tomorrow. Really hope I can get it so that I can tell this good news to all of you! Hahaha...

Good luck to me again! Sorry cz I always need all of you to pray for me!
But because of the wishes that given by you all, I can surmount all the obstacles and challenges!
Thank you! And wait for the good news from me!
GAMBATEH!


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

我投降了

一睁开眼,周围都是一片漆黑,我,摸不着,也看不着,
恐惧的魔鬼在不断吞噬着我的身体,
我的身体开始遍体鳞伤,
心在淌着血,
无奈没有援手可把我从魔鬼的血盆大口给拉回来,
就算我撕破喉咙不断地大喊求助,
也无动于衷。

我选择投降了,
我,放弃了,
我,彻彻底底的失败了,
魔鬼还在吞噬着我的肉体,
但我,此刻,眼泪已经从手心划过了。

Friday, April 10, 2009

shame

yesterday already went to interview...felt vry gan qiong leh..
cz it is a big company..and there are many people working there...the ambience was really different if compare to my old environment...


The person-in-charge that interview me called Angie..
First, she ask me several general questions lo..I will not forget what she said at first word:" you only 19 years old ah? your appearance looked like more mature o." I only can smile to her. "you already get married ah?" Ya, baby oso 7 months already" I answered.
then ask me my education level until what stage..
I said:"SPM ONLY." Then she said Ok.
Ans she ask whether I got take any other course, I answer No.

She looked at my certificate, and she said my result not bad but why don't want to continue to study, is it because maternity, I answer her "YA". Then she said it is wasted if I don't want to continue to study. I told her I wil continue to study later..Now she ask me to continue our conversation with english.

Then she ask what computer software I know, "Microsoft Words, Microsoft Excel, Microsoft Power Point, Chinese Star". Then she ask whether my typing speed fast or not because there will be many typing jobs that I need to do and it all have to be rush so I should be type fast so that I can finish all the work. "Actually my typing speed is quite slow, but I will learn to type faster." After that, she straight away test my typing skill. She ask me type a form with many borders then she want to calculate the time I using to finish typing the form. I was not sure how long the time I had use but I felt like quite long...then she said will inform me later...I spent total one and a half hour over there! I can't expect that my interview session will take so much time de..
Shame...really shame for it...Why my typing skill so 'cha' de? I oso dun noe why..since last time until now my typing speed remains the same, slow...and slow...I can't type fast like you all..if I type fast then there will be many wrong words....I don't know why? Can please someone teach me how can I inprove my typing skill? and my typing speed too? I want to inprove myself before they agree to hire my..because I don't want to be repel by my colleagues and be left outside from them...I really scare....I really worry..if I'm giving a job then because my typing speed is so slow it makes me can't finish the job in the time given then I sure will be scold by my boss de!
Please help me...please teach me how to improve my typing skill and speed too.. will appreciate what you teach me..I will start to practise type faster from now...
Anyone that have tips o hints that can help me to improve my typing skill and typing speed please leave a comment for me under this post or just leave a message for me in the chat box...Thank you...Your assistance is much appreciated...thx...

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

wish me good luck...

Well, tomorrow will going to interview for a job again...
the position is admin. clerk in ING Insurance Berhad at the Jalan Sungai Lasak there...
tomorrow after i off work then will straight away go there...
I really really hope that I can get the job.....really pray I can get it...because I felt very very frustrated if continue to stay here......i really felt not happy working here......Maybe anyone of you will not understand why I hate here so much....all i only can say is there are no meaning if you do something that you are not happy with it, aren't?

All of you can study the course that you all prefer but I can't....all of you can go out with your friends and go anywhere that you want but I can't....all of you can go play, enjoy, watch movie, shopping, entertain, yum cha...................................BUT I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Really frustrating!!!!!!!! and unhappy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And my husband didn't give me any support...he just share my unhapiness...means I express all my unhapiness to him then he just listen and listen only.....that's all! haiz...........

mummy really felt unhappy....rui bin, only you can make mummy happy..............
you smile, mummy will smile too....mummy love you......muacks........

my friends, wish me good luck ya.............may God bless me!

Monday, April 6, 2009

《无题》

天气真的变化莫测,此刻晴朗,下一刻可能突然就下起倾盆大雨;
月亮的形状亦如此,时而圆,时而缺,
这世界的所有事情已经不再是我们所能控制的,
而且很多事情的发生往往都出乎意料的,
或是你没想过的。
你要如何去反应它?
你会如何去接收它?
我不知道。
我只知道我的心脆弱地像一块玻璃般,
无法承受突如其来的刺激。
可是这世界就是这样,
就算你有千般万般的不愿意,
你还是得接收它。
不是你不能选择,
而是你「没有选择」。
我的心告诉我,

人类已经不再是万物之灵,

因为我们已无法控制这个世界,而是任由它摆布,

不是吗?

我可以选择不再当生活的奴隶吗?

可以吗?我行吗?

我也希望我行,因为我已经被它搞得精疲力尽了,

我真的很想赶快脱离它的摆布,

越快越好!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

给我的朋友

致:我所有的朋友
朋友,我真的觉得自己离你们越来越远,越来越远。。。

虽然我们之间的距离只有几公里的差距。。。。



你们现在都是到学院上课或升上中六,忙的都是功课、ASSIGNMENT、PROJECT和PRESENTATION;

而我现在已经出来社会工作,忙的都是工作及为钱烦恼;



你们还是受父母保护的孩子;而我却已经是要保护孩子的妈妈了;



我们的身份已不同了。



最近知道有些朋友为了学业烦恼、成绩不理想,还有在学校与同学们的关系不理想,你们都会埋怨还有感到垂头丧气。。还有烦恼这个那个。。。搞到自己很不开心。。


朋友,我只是想告诉你们, 要珍惜你们现在所拥有的,珍惜在学校的光阴。

或许你们已开始对现在的生活感到厌倦,但你们要想想,有些人连继续升学的机会都没有,就像我。老实说,我有时也真的想像你们一样,到学校或学院上课,当个快乐的学生。

因为,在社会做工,真的不是你们所想象那样容易的。外头的社会,是多么冷酷、多么无情。如果遇到好老板,那就是你三生修来的福;如果遇到刻薄的老板,那你可就要倒大霉了!

你们到学院上课,有朋友、有同学、有老师,那多好啊!或许你们现在会觉得很讨厌读书,但光阴似箭,时间很快就会过去的,待你们毕业时,你们可能会感到不舍得或后悔当初没有好好珍惜你们在学院或学校的日子。在学院上课或是中六的生活都是多姿多彩的!吸取的知识也很深入,这种的生活是多么地令人羡慕啊!

朋友,要珍惜现在与朋友一起读书的时光;

要珍惜现在有好老师的教导;

要珍惜现在有好的环境继续升学;

最重要是:有父母辛苦赚钱回来供你们读书。

我也已经为人母亲,我也是很希望我的孩子以后不会步我的后尘,这么早就结婚,读不多书。我也希望他能拥有高的学历,那以后找工作就容易了,薪水也能高一点,那么生活就好过了。因为父母看到你们的生活过得不好,他们也会觉得很心痛的。就像我看到我的孩子打针时,他痛得大哭出来,我的心也跟着流泪,整颗心很痛,像被搅成一块似的。望子成龙,望女成凤是父母不变的心愿。

朋友,父母的心声你们听见了吗?所以要珍惜你们现在所拥有的一切!别再那么不快乐了!你们还有很多关心你们的朋友在支持着你们!就像我,虽然我们的距离很远,但我会永远给予你们心灵上的支持,在我心中,我会祈愿我的所有朋友能过得很好,天天快乐!

祝福你们!朋友,加油!

丽霞

2009年4月2日