mama..

Mother...

I have 2 mother...

mummy very sayang me...know what I need...caring abt my life...my job...my relationship with my husband...

mama also sayang me...but dun know why if compare with your daughter I still gain lesser concern from you...

i know de...i understand de...cos i'm still a 'orang luar' no matter how harmony we are...

a gap was exist between us...

i dun know why it will become like this...

maybe i'm still a 18 years old girl...for you...

i know what i done was not good as you did...

but i will learn...learn to be more closer with you...

be a daughter-in-law is not a easy job...

especially for me who just 18 years old...

last time at home i can give any opinion that i think i'm right...i can

speak anything i like...

do anything i prefer...

act anything i want...

but now...

i can't already...

now before i want to give any opinion i have to think twice...

before i speak anything i have to look at other people 'face' first..

before i do anything i have to makesure what i do will not make anybody angry...

before i act anything i have to look is it suitable for the situation, if not i will be sarcasm by other people...

haiz...really not easy...

do you know that? i already turn into a new leave...if compare with last time...

i already try my best to become your good daughter-in-law..

everytime when you praise other daughter-in-law, i really hope to hear the compliment from you to me...

maybe for you, i'm still not good enough...

the only one thing that i had made you happy was i give you a cute baby...a cute baby boy...

i know you love him so much...

but still got problem exist...

i'm very care and concern on everything of ruebin..i want give him everything good...

example his feeding bottle you always didn't wash cleanly.. i didn't talk anything about it..

that day i really cannot tahan...so i said:

" mama, ruebin's feeding bottle have to use that brush to wash if not it won't clean"

but what i gain in the end was your unhapiness..

so i didn't mention about this again in front of you...

i know you love ruebin so much..

but just want to let you know that ruebin also my mother's cucu...

sometimes when i told you i want bring ruebin to my mother there..you look so unhappy...

if i didn't take ruebin to my mother there daddy and mummy will unhappy..

what can i say..

i only can say i'm very suffered from such this situation...

mama, i just want to let you know that i love you as i love my daddy and mummy..

just want you to understand me and understand anything i done...

anyway..mama, i love you..

from my heart..