good news!

A good news is going to tell all of you...which is........................................

I PASS MY UNDANG TEST!

WITH 48/50 RESULT!!!!

Haha.....Am I pro enough? Sorry for being sooooo bhb......cz I am too exciting liao......I didn't do the 1000 question and other exercises...just read the undang book at the night after my baby sleep ( and the time I want to sleep too)...I can't believe that I can pass it with quite high score...(oops, sorry i am praising myself again)....So,

CONGRATULATION TO ME YA!

This coming weekends will going to attend the 6 hours Amali Course...and I have to pay RM160 again for this course...already spent RM 330 for my driving test....only can get my License L....haiz...it really costly for me....but I have no choice...because I want to get my driving license as soon as possible! so that later I can buy a car and go to work by myself...no need my husband to fetch me liao.......

Talking about my job.......that day the interview session was not successful....but never mind.....

because now I have found quite a few job to interview.......on tomorrow.......

but..........still not sure will going to interview which one.......

Anyway hope I can get one of those job so that I can leave here......... AS SOON AS I CAN!!!

I don't want continue to be lonely at here.....and learning nothing.....

I really pray and hope that I can get a new job quickly...

so that I can learn new things,

learn new people,

and of course encounter new challenges...

jia you! wait the good news from me!

GAMBATEH!!!

Erm....last two days already went to take a look on the new environment...
unfortunately it doesn't met my needs...and the people there...not friendly also....
and of course the reimbursement.......same with now one's....not big difference.........

it means that I still have to stay at this old environment......until I found my new environment.....
actually I already fed up and try to give up.....but......there is always a better tomorrow is waititng for us!

my husband's friend said will recommend a new environment for me soon...not sure it deal or not...but as long as I TRIED.....am I right? So...

LISA, don't try to give up!

If you fail this time, there will be many chances again in the future!

You should be treasure what you possess now! You still own a job but many people lost their job outside there!

Hence, just be patient....and I believe you will found it one day!

gambateh, lisa!

p/s: this coming Sunday will going to attend the undang test...i'm worry that if I fail I have to pay to be tested again....so, WISH ME GOOD LUCK ya!

GAMBATEH LISA!!!!!!!

A new life is around the corner!

Tea or coffee?

every moment in our life, we have to make a choice...

no matter what choice you have made,

just believe in yourself...

i hope that what I choose was the choice that I really want to choose...

previously I continue and continue said that I was not happy with the old environment(u will know abt it if you got read my post before),

and I also said that now was not the time for me to change to new environment...

but now the time for it...

although it still not a very suitable time for me to do this,

but I CHOOSE to do it...

because I don't want let myself for being so unhappy and stress liao...

i need a new life for
myself!

next week i will go take a look on my new environment and meet with people there...

sure will consult about my duties and the reimbursement that pay for me...

if it satisfy my needs and the environment is good for me to learn things...

then i'm going to say 'BYE BYE' to my old environment!

but of course everything sure havent confirm de...

so,

WISH ME GOOD LUCK YA!

HURRAY!!!!!!!

原來快乐可以很简单。。。

昨天晚上回娘家，老公的朋友住在娘家附近，他朋友的车有东西要老公帮忙检查，因为我老公的职业是汽车修理。

临走前，他朋友吩咐我，叫我介绍一些女生朋友给他们那些还没交女朋友的朋友。。。（这句话里有好多朋友的字眼哦>.<

我就告诉他，不是我不要介绍给他们，因为不是每位女生都像我这样喜欢年龄与我们相差大的男生的（我老公大我十一年哦！看不出哦！嘻嘻。。。〕

随后，我的老公冒出一句话，他说：“不是每个人都像我这样幸运的。”

一句很普通的话，可是却能让我开心很久。。。

因为我的老公很少会说这种话的，而且这次是在他的朋友面前说，

对我来说，那个意义真的很重大。

哈哈哈哈。。。或许你会嘲笑我，为了这么小的事情都可以这么开心，

但是，我可以告诉你，

我是一位超情绪化的女生，

今天或许我很开心，但明天我可以突然变得很伤心。。。

我的老公能忍让我，真的很不容易。。

所以我很容易满足的，我并不要求高，

我不要求我的老公一定要很有钱很有钱、我不要求他一定要买洋房或豪华车给我坐，

只要他真心对我、爱我，疼我们的孩子，

对我忠心，那就已经够了。。

真的足够了。。。

所以只要他对我说一些甜言蜜语，我都非常开心。。。

就像我老公，每天都过得轻轻松松的，

你很少会看到他不快乐的，他每天都不计较这么多，做人很随便，

所以他很快乐。。。

看到他，我发现原来快乐可以很简单的。。

我想我应该向他多多学习。。。

moodless....n tired....*-*

Recently not in good mood....dun know why...
just felt not very happy...
maybe because of the same thing lo: the old environment...

haiz....really upset with these...
but i'm helpless....and nothing can do to change it....

That day watch a movie, quite long time ago de movie...."Princess D", in mandarin is "xiang fei"...I dun know you all still remember it or not...

This movie was about if you want to fly or go the place that you hope to go, your dream will come true if you persist with your dream, and not give up...no matter how stupid are you, how tiny are you, how ugly are you...you can make it in the end...and go the place that you really hope to go...

I hope that i can become the Princess D, go the place that I wish to go, do the thing that I prefer to do...I really hope that I can fly...let all the unhapiness,burden go...forget all the stupid troubles and duties....just be myself...
CAN I? CAN I?

I got the answer from my heart: "IMPOSSIBLE"..

Ya...i know it was impossible...as long as i got dream....i can imagine although i can't make it...if you have dream then you are closer to your goal...the phrase that people always mention...aren't?

And I'm tired too...I felt myself was a hamburger, squeeze by both parties, first party was my parents and relatives, second party was my husband's parents and relatives....

Sometime really felt embarrassing...or the other word is dun know how to divide us into two parts so that we can satisfy the both parties...i hope that we can be cut into two parts...if we can..

I hope i can have a enough rest for myself...and long time dint go out play play or entertain le...hope can go travelling....haiz...no $$$ leh...just forget about it la..

if can go "GENTING HIGHLAND" also not bad right?

school = battle field??

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Sorry for being so rude...but it really made me very very angry man!!!!!!!

What the hell of this ah? Damn TERUK MAN!!!

Yesterday my brother kena beaten by ORANG MELAYU IN THE SCHOOL!!!

listen carefully...it was happened in the school!

School, a place for us to study, to gain the knowledge and to broaden our mind and eyesight too.

it is also the safe place for us to spend our almost whole day time with it...

But now it is no longer safe, no longer disciplined!

Yesterday, when my brother stay in the class, suddenly a gang of Malay students went into his class and beat them! Not only my brother was beat by them, but the other CHINESE students also kena. And they use SCHOOL CHAIRS AND TABLES AS THEIR WEAPON!! When my brother's friends took him run away, the malay gang still didn't let him go and chased him by holding a iron stick! All the teacher look at it but all of them DOING NOTHING! Then police came...

One more thing tat lagi teruk was the police's attitude! In the school after the policeman came, my mother wanna took my brother to see doctor as his head was keep bleeding, but the policeman said CANNOT! He said small matter only and want to take my brother and the malay gang to police station.

Ok, then my mother have to work so she went to work and asked my father to follow them to police station. In the police station, my brother and the malay gang were asked and questioned by the policeman in a room while my father and the other students' parents were waiting outside of the room. They spent total 5 hours at the police station!!!

Not only this, my father felt very angry as the policeman said the incident will settle through fighting of both malay and chinese gangster. Oh my god! It actually my brother (the chinese students) beaten by the malay gang, but they said it was they fighting and battle!!! What the hell of this ? It such like they wanna menyebelahi the malay gang!

Besides, the attitude when the policeman questions them also damn damn teruk leh! As my brother said, the policeman said to him: " awak punya XXXX itu masih kecil saja tau tak sudah mau gaduh ah? awak mau gaduh ka? mari gaduh dengan saya lah! mari! mari gaduh dengan saya lah! " OH OH MY GOD!!!!!!! Is it the way a policeman talk to a student? Is it the way??

And, 5 hours at there, no any drinks or food provided! My brother only had his breakfast at 7 a.m. until afternoon 5 p.m. only went back home to eat! I really can't imagine the situation when he was at the police station, head bleeding, stomach hungry-ing and thirsty-ing! Oh...my pity brother...

After reach home, my father took him to clinic...luckily the wound not deep enough so no need to sew and doctor just clean the wound and gave him some medicine to consume. His face also beaten by them until 'black green'...luckily not so seriuos... My father said, he saw got other students beat until very serious...the leg injured and can't walk properly...the face beat until bleeding and swelled...haiz...sad...sad....

The school that my brother study was a secondary school in Taman Klang Utama. A school that famous with the fighting of students...

It was really UNFAIR!!! Please help to inform your friends and relatives not to send their children for study at such teruk school...a non-disciplined school....

And our country...hopeless already.....that's why we can't improve to a higher standard....u see...such a thing also can happend in school, so where got law already?where got? where got?????????

haiz....no more 'Malaysia Boleh' la.....society now so bad....and the market all so down.....but the authority party and adminstration party still didn't carry their responsibility to improve our counrty and cooperate together to bring our country's status quo to a higher one.....but only know how to debate and argue to each other and fighting on authority and position in the Parlimen...........

Can you all stop all these and just do the thing that you all suppose to do? Such the incident also can happend in the school, who knows that it will happend at anywhere in our country? who knows? I think God knows it.......Perhaps.......

I hope our country will change into a better one.......although i know the chance will be so tiny.......and hope my brother will not injure again....if not i will really disclose and expose this bad news and their bad side to all people in this country! so that all people can look clearly what they look like!

i really dare to do it! so please do not force me to do it!!!!!!!!!!

i give you all a first warning!

~无言以对~

我知道伤心不能改变什么，那么那就干脆一点。。。

人家常说，开心与否，掌握在自己的心及在于你怎样想。。。

话还真的说得容易，可是要做到，真的是很难。。。
我们是人类，一种有感情、有情绪、有泪有血的动物。。。
要做到百侵不入，哈哈。。。这也太不可能吧。。

伤心或生气一定会有，在于你是如何控制它的程度及长度，
你可以选择很生气很生气，或是只选择稍微生气就好；你可以选择生气很久，或是只选择生气一下就好。。。
但是也必须看情况而定的。。。

但对我来说，这真的非常不容易。。。真的不容易啊。。。

最近的日子过得快乐，但也参杂着不快乐。。。

一个男人，他可以是一个好男人，但他未必是一个好老公。。
怎么说呢？就好像我老公，他是一个超级好男人（对我来说），他不赌、不吸、不喝、不嫖，又没有什么不良嗜好，参的朋友也是来来去去那几个，我都跟他们很熟略了。。。
但就是不是一个好老公，因为他比较老实，不会说甜言蜜语来逗我开心；还有比较不会观察我的脸色。。。没有记性，跟他说过的事情，很快就忘记了。。。有时真的被他气死。。

但是我知道他已经算是很好了。。我知道自己的条件也不是很好，所以我没有资格去要求别人怎样。。。
老公，在这里有些话想要对你说。
谢谢你每次都忍让我，永远都不会正面跟我起冲突；
谢谢你这么疼我，我要什么你都会买给我；
谢谢你这么疼孩子，你疼他，我也很开心；
不管以后的路怎样辛苦，我也会陪你一起挨下去，绝不会让你一个人独自承担所有的事情；
不管以后发生什么事情，我希望能永远陪在你的身边，陪你一起老，陪你一起看我们的孩子长大成人，看孩子成家立业；
老公，'sarang heyo'.

快乐总是非常短暂的。。。现在要说些不快乐的事情了。。。

我真的很想赶快换一个新的环境，去体验新的事物与经验、去接触新的人。。。
我快要被这个旧的环境给逼疯了！
在这里，我非常孤独，没有人能够陪我一起解决事情，任何事情都要自己想办法解决；
每天做的都是无关痛痒的事，真的觉得没有发挥的机会；
做多了、做得好的报酬都一样那么少，根本入不敷出；
还要被监视，我跟什么人见面、谁来找我，都会有人通风报信；
每天还要被催要赶快做好某件事情，但最后才发现原来那件事情根本就不急着用的；
时常要我做一些我很抗拒的事情、要我做哪些装蒜欺骗的事情，我真的很不爽；

我真的快受不了了！！！！

如果我得到的报酬比较高的话，我或许还不会这样生气啊！但我知道无论我再多么努力、再多么勤奋、再多么忠心，结果还是一样的！

但是我没有办法、没有选择，只能默默忍受；因为时机未到，因为现在不是我转换新环境的时候，

所以我告诉自己要忍耐，但有时候也真的是忍无可忍啊！

惟有在这里靠写部落格来发泄我的情绪、我的不悦！

我很不爽！！很不爽啊！！！

我很beh tahan！很 beh tahan！很beh tahan!啊！！！！

发泄后，心情也没有什么转变，唉。。。我想是很难有好心情的啦。。

当我决定别再伤心、生气时，肯定又会有一些不开心的事情来困扰我，使我的心情再从高峰掉落到谷底。。。那种心情很痛苦。。。也难以形容。。

在外头的世界与社会是多么的冷酷，突然发现，最温暖的地方，还是我们的家。。

也突然发现，以前在家有父母的呵护与保护是多么的幸福，

此刻，真的很想躺在父母的怀抱里，向他们撒娇。

我知道我已不能这样做，因为我已经是一个孩子的妈妈了，应该我孩子躺在我的怀抱里才对。

幸好在这些不快乐的日子里，有老公的陪伴，

更重要的是，有孩子的欢笑声，

每天回到家里，看见孩子开心地笑、看见孩子躺在我的怀抱里向我撒娇，

老实说，所有不开心地事情就会被抛到九霄云外。。。

真的很感谢上天赐我一个可爱的宝宝。。。

最后，只希望我可以过得快乐些，我知道这也是我的朋友们也想看到的，

好的，我答应你们，会让自己快乐起来的！

也希望大家能微笑的度过每一天！

TERIMA KASIH

What can i do? What can i say?

I don't know.......I don't know.......I don't know!!!!

I suddenly felt that I had lost the meaning of life.....l felt that i lost everything......everything.....

I lost the time with my beloved parents...

I lost the time with my naughty siblings...

I lost the time with my loving friends...

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I lost the time with my fellow classmates...

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I lost the time with my cute juniors....

I lost the time with my respect seniors...

I lost the time with my old friends...

I lost almost everything in my life!

So, what can I say?

only thing that I can say is:

" I'M LUCKY"

although I lost everything, but they din't abandon me...

they still care about me.....think about me...n REMEMBER me...

As boon yee said: maybe i need more time to adapt with it...

As mei ying said: i will get to know what to do when the time come...

As kher shing said: anything will be get through easily as long as I din't give up...

As thiam chun said: only hardworking and blessed people can pass all the challenges...

As eunice said: happiness or not depend on my mind and heart...

Do you see? Do you see?

They din't abandon me! They din't forget me!

They always beside me....when I face problems in my life....

their advice mean a lot to me! n always in my heart.....so that i will not give up in my life...

last word i want to say to you all:

THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

to all my friends....